Early morning sun shone
through the lattice window
while thin-beaked blue birds
sung a piercing high note.
Our unkempt rose garden—
evidence of unrestricted love—
was showered by the tears (of joy)
from the clouds above.
Mama would saunter into our room,
shew the birds away,
to read us our chores for the day.
We’d clean for hours;
until Daddy came from the fields
with those wild-looking flowers!
I had community where I grew
and safety in people that looked like me,
and from those that looked like you.
We were separated
on the terms of discrimination;
the ink that stains are nation,
the blinds that shut the light
out my Mama’s eyes
the night
I was taken away.
That night,
my mind was flooded
by a riptide of fear,
my vision was unclear
so as not to see
how I was prodded
like the poultry
Mama would sauté or
how He used my body
to commit adultery.
Most nights
remained the same,
I was in a play
with no scenery change,
only made to endure
from the day
I met you.
Your face was like His,
but younger and weary.
Similar skin color,
but different eyes.
Yours would flutter
with intrigue
for the culture
I brought with me.
You treated me well
and lived for the
stories I’d tell
about my life
before captivity.
When you gave me
those roses from
the entwined thorn vines
behind the manor,
I wept.
And the nights
that I slept
by your side,
you’d wake me
to do the tasks
He left behind.
You held me by my heart,
trying to be Mama and Daddy.
And for what you couldn’t become,
you taught me to see.
Like how the sun still lit
in the AM haze
and the birds chirped
in its soothing rays.
But hesitance pulled me
from your full embrace.
How could I trust the color
of my oppressor?
Would I sacrifice my dignity
for us to be together?
To disprove my assumption
of your identity,
you confessed that you’re
a baby of infidelity
with His old house girl.
You claimed we were the same
because we were stolen
from our families,
left only with distant memories
and the sounds of their cries,
that were too heavy to hear goodbye.
Yet, our similarities
walked a thin line
until you said your mama
had skin just like mine.
You saw her through me
like time waited
to test your heart.
“He can’t take you
away from me,"
or make bland
the color of our art.”
Your truth revealed
that the acceptance
of my presence
was evidence to your past,
and we were both souls alone
clinging to each other
to remind us of home.